Depression and anxiety issue. To live.

I'm from a hindu family who is in love with a muslim guy.So the problem is my family doesn't want me to get married to an muslim guy n i dont want to marry anyone except him,my father doesn't talk to me he is least bother about me,my mother she always treat me very badly n my brother he is the only one who supports me but still sometimes wen i say my problems to him he is not intrested n as i dont have any friends so my bf n my brother is the only friend i have. my bf he loves me a lot but he cant express his feelings n that wat i dont like it make me feel like he is not intrested in me.I always take out time to be with him even he does but when sometimes he dont talk to me or we dont meet thats wen my anxiety level goes up and i started to fight him and i cry alot,due to all this things which i go thru daily in home or with my bf it had make me very depress.I cant concentrate on my work n then m left with one thing that how shud i die n i've did before,but i want to live.