Suffering alot due to toxic parents.

The feelings of being unsupported, lonely and overwhelmed can be very difficult to manage alone. Please consider reaching out to a psychologist especially if suicidal thoughts continue

Thank you for sharing something so painful. From what you've described, it sounds like you've experienced years of control, criticism, emotional hurt, and even physical abuse. Living in such an environment can leave a person feeling exhausted, lonely, and deeply misunderstood. What concerns me most is that you mentioned feeling suicidal at times. If you are currently having thoughts of harming yourself or feel unable to keep yourself safe, please reach out immediately to a trusted person, a mental health professional, or an emergency/crisis service in your area. It is important to remember that your worth is not determined by how your parents treat you. Many people who grow up in controlling or abusive environments begin to internalize the negative messages they receive, but those messages do not define who they are. Since you are an independent working adult, it may be helpful to gradually work on setting healthy boundaries, building a support system outside the family, and creating a plan for emotional and practical independence. These situations can be complex, and having professional support can make a significant difference. You do not have to carry this burden alone.

Hi, I'm truly sorry you're feeling this way. It may help to seek support from a mental health professional or counselor who can provide guidance, validate your feelings, and help you develop strategies to protect your well-being. Remember, you deserve love, respect, and a safe environment. Connecting with trusted friends or support groups can also offer comfort and strength. You're not alone, and help is available.

Consult

seek help

Connect with psychologist to resolve inner conflict

connect

consult

I’m sorry that you’ve had to carry so much pain for so long. From what you've described, you're dealing with not only ongoing conflict and criticism from your parents, but also the emotional impact of childhood physical abuse, lack of emotional support, grief, loneliness, and feeling controlled despite being an independent adult. Anyone who grows up in an environment where they feel unheard, criticized, or treated as a burden may struggle with self-worth, trust, emotional security, and feelings of hopelessness. The fact that your parents continue to pressure you, dismiss your choices, and create a stressful environment understandably adds to your distress. What concerns me most is that you mentioned feeling suicidal at times. This tells me that the emotional burden has become very heavy and deserves immediate attention and support.

Please reach out to a trusted friend, relative, or mental health professional and let them know what you're going through. Focus on building emotional and practical independence, including a support system outside the family. If living separately is a realistic and safe option in the future, you can begin planning it gradually rather than impulsively. Allow yourself to grieve both the loss of your grandparents and the lack of emotional support you've received from your parents.

Try not to measure your worth by how your parents treat you. Their behavior reflects their own limitations, not your value as a person. Avoid engaging in repeated arguments that leave you feeling emotionally drained. Spend time with people who are supportive and respectful of your choices. Keep a record of your emotions and triggers to better understand how the environment affects your mental health. Important: Because you mentioned suicidal feelings, please take this seriously. If you are having thoughts of harming yourself, feel unable to stay safe, or are thinking about acting on those thoughts, contact a mental health professional, crisis helpline, emergency services, or a trusted person immediately. You should not carry this alone.