Depression due to family problems. Us.

I am married. My parents are from village culture and my father is very aggressive. My father and mother used to fight through their life till now. They are good human beings. But my father is very angry person and we have yo do what he tells in everything otherwise he will become angry and will lead to problem in the house. Sometimes they don't even eat for days because of this and i have to beg them to eat. By seeing all of this my childhood, i grew like a coward. Every time they fought each other i am thinking to commit suicide. Beacuse of this nature i could not concentrate on my marriage life also. Now i have applied for divorce. I don't know what to do in my life. Please help me. I see no future for me. I am 30 years old and our parents live with us.