Anxiety depression panic attacks.

Hi, I am an IT professional. Here, I am living alone. My family is in another city,I can't share with them whatever I m going through. Due to some personal issues my mental health is degrading day by day. Going through depression. Get irritated and upset with small things. I have problem of anxiety. Mostly when I am alone at night time I will get panic attacks and would get breathing problem. I can't control the situation and myself. Would find ways to get my frustration out and whatever happened in my past to forget. I have been backstabbed by my own and my friends. They left me alone. My past experiences and the trust I had put on everyone I am regretting. I do cry for hours feel disgust on many things. There are thousands of questions' which I came across due to my past and here and there I try to get the answers but not getting. the one i love lied to me for another girl hundred times. I get bed dreams of whatever happened with me in the past or whatever I am scared of. Exhausted