Suicidal Guy. Not as fabricated here.

I dont want to live in this world. Psychiatrists diagonised the mixed disorder which are the  symptoms of Bipolar 2, BPD, OCD and Schizophrenia. I abruptly stopped medicine but no problem with sleep now on. I got ECT (6+) along with relevant medicines which hasnt worked at all. Please dont help me to live. Love or fond of * Music(crying) * Lord Shiva * Philanthropic (donate blood, serve food, clothes etc) * To become Saint * To commit suicide especially without pain * To be singing for many hours (crying) * Not to have food but once in a day * To hurt myself with lesser pain * To write poems or paragraph (crying) * To dance (Moonwalk, Gliding, Break etc) * To masturbate * To talk about Psychology, Philosophy, Theology, Vocal Pedagogy * Kindness or to be loved with rather than pretty things Hate * Marriage * If someone angry with me * To compare with other's wealth because every person is unique Thats all about myself and just disclosed my real thoughts not as fabricated here.