Regarding mental health. Very repadily.

I have gone through medications in other sense tablets from psychiartrits .I am taking that tablets daily since last 5 years.That anger is because of depression.When I was in 2 PUC I scored less .And then onwards whenever people talk I asuumne that they are talking about myself only.That irritates me.And when I get anger I can't able to control myself.Nothing can get me anger rather than a sharp sound.Even when vehicles horn and bangles sound is hurting me.I donno why whenever I hear sound then in my head there is continuous pain.Inorder to remove that pressure and pain I have to express that in some other way.So either I throw stones where sound comes from or I start scolding them.At that instant I can't control me at all.The problem with tablets is that they will grow my body very repadily.