Psycological issue. They cut my wings.

Hello sir/mam before 10 year ago my parents took me and get admission on that school which they want forcefully i really dont like that school and i faced some bad situation like abusing in my childhood in school 10 years ago till now that things are disturbs me, this thoughts are repeat on mind daily and i waste 3/4 hr in a day on this thoughts i want to express my self but i can't due to this things currently my situation is that if i see that place on my mobile phone,dream or in emergency if i go on that way it is in my mind that something bad will happen with me i skip my works till the date is change and i like to take bath immidiately after see a photo of that place or anything related to that place don't know what is this my parents thinks that is nothing any problem thats why they not listen me properly on this matter i feel like worthless in my life and there is nothing good will happen with me i feel daily like when i had to fly on my wings on that time they cut my wings.