Now i can't trust anyone. But i don't.

Hello Dr. I was abused my cousin brother when I was too young and later on this continued till my 10 std.Initially o had no idea when he used to do all that with me he used to do in night when I was sleeping later on he started blackmailing me or seduce me showing porn or used to give me some gifts to get his work done I used to say okay to his wishes either in fear or due to gifts.After 10 standard I was feeling like I was second hand as I was used by him Same time a lecturer of mine started caring me lot so I got friendly to him later on he used started moving close to me by touching me and all then he proposed me I accepted even though I knew he was married because he used to tell me many sad stories of his life for which I became sympathetic.Later on things went worst when his wife returned I felt I was cheating on her and he was never True to me so I left him happily but he still follows me and tries to talk to me but I don't.