Mental illness. Like this. please help.

Hello Friend, Good that you are seeking a help. As you already tried medication and still not able to get a solution, I am sharing a different perspective of your problem from Ayurveda angle. See if this helps you to decide the next course of treatment options. Such symptoms exhibit in your body due to imbalance of any one of these energies like air or fire or water energy in body called as Vata, pitta or kapha. You can Google and find more.  Ayurveda solutions is a holistic approach of treating both body and mind through  few lifestyle changes, dietary, home remedies or few therapies. To explore this, a detailed analysis of your body constitution is required and then the appropriate treatment is recommended. If interested reach out to me online for further evaluation..