Imagination and bad thoughts. Scared.

Hi, Your concerns are genuine and I can understand the phase you are going through. My honest opinion is that you cannot travel on two boats at the same time. Human tendency is that we get attracted towards new things. For example we buy a dress and when we see a new model, we get attracted towards it. We buy a phone and when a new model is launched, we tend to feel that the phone we are using is outdated and want that new mobile. Similarly we get attracted to different persons in our lives, which might cause distress to us. You need to introspect yourself, by thinking about your family, values, morals and societal norms. Once you have done that you will find clarity in your thoughts. Then you can decide on an action plan.

If you cannot introspect yourself, then you need expert help by a psychiatrist. We can discuss the details online privately so that the information you share will be confidential. Thus we can start counselling you and provide you with the best course of action.