I want to do sucide. This is happening?

Every negative thought you have is probably a result of depressed state of mind. You may be experiencing depression. In depression, a person is more likely to think self defeating negative thoughts.

First of all, acknowledge the presence of negative thinking. It will help if you can write down all of the thoughts you have related to the current situation. Do not take any action on these thoughts. Constantly tell yourself not to change your actions depending upon these thoughts. For example, if the thought of ending your life pops up, do not entertain it for a long time and do not take any action towards it. Discuss this with someone from your family and friends. It is important to disclose this to someone close to you, who can keep a check. If possible, talk with a counselor or a psychotherapist. That will help you identify what's causing the depressive state. Continue doing your daily chores. Do not put a pause on your life. Exercise regularly, if you aren't. Maintain a balanced diet. Sleep at regular times and for adequate time. (6 - 8 hours) Maintain a thought diary. Try to write all the negative thoughts. Once you do that, it will be possible to fine alternative positive thinking.