I feel suicidal. Worthy of their house.

Hello Friend, Good that you are seeking a help here. I can understand your suitation very well. Yes, Care taking is a tough job both mental and physical and can cause such depression and frustration if people around us doesn't recognize the your values or your sincere efforts. What you need is a little take care of yourself ie your health, your interest, your passion etc first. You need to learn yourself the ways to handle your emotions, desires, interests, priorities even with this constraints. Suggest you to take a professional counselling help to first ventilate you emotions and concerns, so that you are able off load your feelings. Then you can figure out how to manage things better and slowly overcome the depression. Consult a psychologists directly or online. Call me or reach me online through Practo app for further detailed evaluation and suitable recommendation. Be positive. You will be alright soon.