How to forget past? Me cry even now.

I was married 3 years ago.. Now I am in divorce process..my ex would pick up fights for silly reasons and would go and complain his parents.. This was continuing I would be silent and tolerated.. But our sex life was normal..befire a year again we started a big fight at that time I couldn't control I ended up asking bitter questions right from beginning when I was silent. So he sent me to my home telling we shall take break for 10 days and meet counsellor (which we were already had sessions)and u shall come back.. We were talking over phone suddenly he told after u get ur periods call me till that don't call me(we were planning for a family). I innocently called after getting my periods. He told we can go to divorce and kept phone blocked me in everything.. I entered to severe mental trauma which is humming inside my ears till now.. I am feeling very bad and low on myself and my body since i am not a virgin. I don't know how to forgot the past?. which is making me cry even now...