Actually I was dealing with something since my childhood something very confusing very weird full of questions and overthinking or maybe seeing world differently honestly I find myself very different from others and dealing with my condition all alone honestly it's not emotional suffering or suffering like depression or etc.. ye si deal with derealization or maybe chemical imbalance in brain or
thyroid imbalance for 4 years continously since I was 15 and then healing was so brutal and scary and I still feel like I still need time to heal but Actually it's more about my identity or personality and my feelings which I never found feels like I live in mind ,imagination , I don't have any talent,self understanding and nowdays not living continously with time sometimes it moves faster sometimes slow , can't study, can't focus,don't do any work,and walking,gym etc nothing helps me . I'm feeling like im very close to an end . Don't know what was I made for .I have exam but can't study at all