Evaluation. Ready to give up on him.

I've been through a very bad marriage. Physically,mentally and financially disturbing one. I got married with my full conscience. I neither want to be with that person nor can just quit it. I am very impulsive. I over over think a lot and lot. May be I can't put in words how much do I over think of anything. I'm just not happy with my life. I've zero suicidal thoughts. I literally tremble with my attacks. I've panick attacks at nights when he physically abuses me. The attacks were severe. My parents want me to get out of this relationship and stay happy and peaceful. I'm getting depressed and find myself lifeless. My stress levels are going beyond my control. Kindly pass me a solution and help me someway to make me stronger. I'm in a situation where in I can't stand strong for myself. Neither want to leave the person nor be with me. Nothing could make me come out of this relationship as my mind isn't getting ready to give up on him.