Depression. If you've got it, do help.

Well, actually, I'm not sure if I have depression. Probably not. But, I feel quite lonely and unwanted. Wait. Before you say something, it's not in my head. I have trouble making friends. While people plan their weekends, I dread it. Because, most likely, I'll be at home with nothing to do. That makes me feel even sadder, I feel worthless. Makes me physically sick. Because of this, I've been emotionally attached to quite a few girls. I feel that if I get into a relationship, someone will finally make me their first priority (Other than my parents). This has resulted in more pain and an even larger hit at my self esteem. I hear people keep talking about their flings and hook ups and I can't get my head around how it works. It just makes me keep thinking that I'm never gonna be good enough for anyone/ anything. I just wish there was like a manual for life, where I could understand how exactly human relationships work. I'm not sure what my problem is, but, if you've got it, do help. 😊