Depression. Please help. Doing anything.

‌I remain depressed all the time. don't feel like doing anything. I am a foodie, nowadays I don't feel like eating also. I hate my job. I cry at night thinking about I have to go to work the next morning. I am having issues with my boyfriend too. I am very sensitive . I get hurt by very small reasons. I cry for nothing at night when I m alone. I , myself can't figure out sometimes why I m crying. I m always with a gloomy face. this is having an impact on my everyday life. sometimes I feel like it would be better if I would have died, but I can't do that thinking about my parents and bf. He loves me but sometimes if he is rude to me then instead of understanding why he is doing like that I start crying and hurting him back with more rudeness. I can't express myself to anyone. no-one understands me. I m an introvert. painting was my passion. but nowadays I have lost interest in that too. I don't know what to do. there's no one to share my problems with . I don't have any good friends .