Depression/Anxiety. Second of life!

I have a series of incidents that happened and hampered my courage and behavior. 1. My distant uncle passed away in a train accident(which was informed to me first on a call by a stranger passerby) - 2006 2. My aunt passed away (which was informed to me on a call) - Nov 2015 3. My dad had a sudden BP surge and had a clot in brain (mom cald me and asked me to rush to home) -May 2016 4. My dad got the same problem again(mom cald me to have a look at dad wen she was at work) and I was alone with him..admitted him in hospital, was outside ICU entire day until everyone cud return from work - Jun 2016 5. My grandma passed away (which was informed on call by my cousin) -March 2017 6. Husband was detected diabetic suddenly -2016 7. I had an ectopic pregnancy Surgery - Jun 2017 8. Husband sugar levels fluctuating wit ayurvedic medicines With all these continuously happening I hv become depressed and don't enjoy life.. -I am scared of receiving any calls -I don't enjoy a single second of life