Confusion help. Are natural or not.

My father constantly pressurizes me to get a govt job and get married by 25.I don't want this.My mother doesn't have time to listen to it.I have become totally hopeless thinking that I have failed as a daughter.I am tired of living up to his expectations.Lately I have started talking sleeping medicine because I can't sleep anymore at night.My mood changes from day to night and for this my mom is sometimes irritated.But I just cannot handle this pressure.I often think my mom should have aborted me.I don't know whether this is the right place to write all such nonsense.I just want to ask if these thoughts are common for people of my age or not.I don't want to further annoy my parents by saying I have depression and all.They may not even listen to these things.Please tell whether these thoughts are natural or not.