Anxiety unable to control anger sucide.

Hi doctor I have just completed 27, at the age of 23 I got married to a lovely person name wasim initially when I met him things were good. Then solwly I don't very clearly remember I started changing I could control my anger I go numb I fall down I hit people I go crazy when I loose my emotion and I fell I am unsecured in my relationship I feel my husband is not loving me I don't how and y that feeling I start making up stories in my mind and it's been 2 years with all this later from past 4 -5 months I feel like attempting suicide i have tried to do some eaten lot of paracetamol tablets at once drinking mostiquo repellent cutting my nerves hanging myself but while doing all this I know it's wrong and I am fearing to do but at mind back end I have thought what people have said I am rude crue not fit to be a women I cannot take care of married life I can't conceive I am not ment to be. Women And what not. Due to this unable to concentrate I forget things immediately cud u help me