Advice on Mental Health. Wrong with me.

Hey (to whomever it may concern), I am a 24yr old woman. I have been feeling depressed for sometime now. I almost have no energy to get up any given day. I would cry very often on small issues. I have cried to a point where I almost killed myself with a knife. I have been molested when I was around 7-8yrs old. By 4 different people at different times. Nobody in my family knows this, and I have been bullied as a child too. It's hard for me to be normal. I am what you can say a weird person. I am very bad at picking up social ques and I get awkward around people very easily. I have reoccurring thoughts of self harm or suicide almost everyday. I have anxiety and at times I cannot breathe because I cannot think anything other than negative thoughts. It would be helpful if I can know what's wrong with me.