About antibodies. Faster or slower?

If we have good immune system can antibodies appear faster or slower? some people whoare not doctors said weak immune system people can produce antibodies faster than strong immune system people is it true. Why im asking is after sexual exposure I tested at 22,40,80 rapid test, 96thday hiv1&2antibody test my eclia method. 144,156,157,168thdays tridot. 160th day p24antigen+hiv1&2 (combo by eclia method). 176,186th days (ict rapid) in apollo diagnostics.. all are negative. since frm 10 years idont have fever. I think antibodies is not showing up in test. Is it true and I also think hiv is hiding somewhere in my body where tests cant pick up. Im so worried and. my parents wants me to get married soon.im a male atm 🏧 getting sucidal thoughts too. iattempted once with knife but quits again. What is my problem. Am isafe from hiv plz help me and give me the 100% answer